The struggle goes on.
But deciding to repurpose myself requires that indeed, "The Struggle Must Go On."

I am waiting for a final call from a wellness company that wants me in to run a series of unrelated business ventures, which is actually what I am good at. I thrive running different things at the same time. However, the call hasn't come in yet.

The Jeans retailer also hasn't called back. This is another one i'd like to handle, principally because this is FMCG. Also, their new visuals are simply stunning; it was as if i'd have done it myself.

The yacht dealer has not called back. But their HR guy did. It seems I missed my final interview because of a telco snafu with my provider.

I am submitting another photography bid later today. again, that is another longshot. but it was a solicited bid.

I also have received another food shoot booking for next month. and although non-revenue generating, it will greatly be a big boost to do more creative imagery with food.

I still need to reconnect emotionally though.

And yes, Baler still Beckons.

things went south again last tuesday. just when everything was settling little by little. started feeling desperate again. massively desperate.

yesterday was good, but mostly on the perceptive level. got my first callback to a GM interview position, and it seemed positive. like I said, perceptive level. only drawback was my age. only advantage was my ISO certification experience, which seems to be a rare commodity. and it wasn't even in my resume.

submitted a bid this morning when i got news that the people who called me in for a meeting in the swankiest and newest hotel along manila bay just got fired by their joint venture partners. threw my bid there into a tailspin. One minute everything seems to be going right, then another minute and you are again walking on crushed glass, on the roofdeck, of a 30story building. oh when will this all end.

by noon, i got notified that my 2nd bid was nearly double that of the competition. as always. how the hell do you make a living giving away services. how.

found out yesterday that a brod realized i've dropped out of the scene last month and started to get worried. still, never gave a project. oh well. that is the fraternity i joined. all lip service.

really need to find a pad. now, how the heck do you do that with zero cashflow. the sound of crushed glass echoing under my feet. desperate. really really desperate.

the first two callbacks i had are not returning my emails anymore. oh wow. what the hell did i do to the world to deserve this entire YEAR of bad business? what?

and still no one reaches out via this blog. not one of the hundreds that pass through it every month...

another set of fresh site visitors from the U.S.! U.S. origin viewers have now outnumbered Philippine origin viewers.

running analytics really is a big help! at least i have a clearer snapshot where all the viewers are coming from.

if its alright with the viewers, please LEAVE A SHORT NOTE, just so i know who has passed by.

again, thank you for passing thru.