Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Chubby, remembered.


Chubby loved her treats. My wife and I used to kid around that Chubby would easily be the hands-down choice for endorser of Beggin Strips. All you had to do was to crush the foil packaging and she would run towards that sound, wherever she may be.



Once she had the treat, she would find a comfortable rug somewhere and then methodically start to work breaking up the beggin strip into smaller portions before starting to eat them.


A single strip will often take her about 90seconds, as she chews it quite thoroughly. the exceptions happen when she hasnt been given a treat in a week; as she will munch through the entire thing in 2 seconds.


On my wife's first trip to the U.S., Chubby, who knew her pack hierarchy very well, (#1 my wife; #2 chubby; #3 me) suddenly jumped on the bed. this was the first time ever that she did that; I took the picture to send to my wife. Either Chubby was conscious that she was temporarily in top position, or she just missed my wife very much that day.


I could not pull her down. I also was conscious about my pack position. if i pulled her down, she would surely lunge at me. and I make a huge, slow-moving target. hahaha. by the way, this was our new manila house. My wife had her own library and reading room, and I had my own darkroom and cigar area in the attic. occasionally i would have a four-legged visitor who would go up the flight of stairs to hide out with me there. unfortunately, going down the stairs was not her strong point, so she did not visit me that often.


this was at the foot of the stairs, which was chubby's daytime area whenever we weren't around.


chubby ate twice a day, and from the same bowl ever since we had her. her usual meal treats was either ground beef, or chicken. as you can see, she was having chicken that day, so it was a special day. we probably came from Savory the night before.


and this is how she looked halfway through her usual meal.


and this would be how she looked if you forgot to feed her. she would wait beside her bowl. too dignified to let you know.

chubby was also a cultured dog. she used her paws to handle her beggin strips whenever she can. and she chews discretely.


ok, not all the time.


while she would be eating, this is what i'd be eating. keep in mind i was alone for two months.


let me pause for now.


Chubby loved her herb garden. she has had several. way back in new manila, she loved munching on her ferns, but she had to reach across the koi pond, at the narrowest point. She occasionally would need roughage especially after a bout with indigestion. when we moved over to Wilson, I had to build a special herb garden for her, and my wife; not necessarily in that order. the most complicated one i did had basil, tarragon, rosemary, and dill. i planted those as a surprise to my wife when she studied at the French Culinary Institute in New York. I timed them to grow just as she was on her way back. Instead, I was surprised one morning when i saw chubby hovering at the herb garden. after her first taste of basil, she was hooked. hahaha. I think she decimated the herb garden in three days.



Since it took a while to set up a herb garden, if i didn't have one prepared when chubby gets a tummy ache, the fastest way to go is to pop in a handful of mung beans in water, overnight; then plant them the following morning. in two days, they grow to this size. the clay pig on the left was something we picked up in suan lum in thailand in 2005 i think. i handcarried it, not too sure if it would make the 4hour trip in one piece. it did. I originally intended it to be modified into a fountain tip for the koi pond, but never got around to buying the pumps.

occasionally, chubby would stand guard over her puny munggo herb garden, while looking at her kingdom from the balcony. The bamboo chimes were a gift, but i do not quite remember from whom exactly.


when she gets tired standing, she sits and watches the munggo grow. she is a very patient dog. patient, unless suddenly unterrupted by pack hierarchy animal number 3 (me). and she makes sure i notice that she was irritated by my distraction.



irritating chubby was something you wouldn't want to do. although she doesn't turn green, she somehow gets scary when you know she's got your number. she has actually been a very well tempered dog most of the time. with the operative word being "most". I, who takes the brunt of her intolerances, am occasionally fearful of her when she gets jealous of me. the few times she has snarled at me, it was mostly as a warning to back off; to give her space. I almost always did.

i remember when we moved to wilson. whenever she needed to use the toilet (she had her own, and I trained her to use it) which was in the other room and needed someone to wake up to open the door for her, she learned to growl in a very low register, and at a low volume so as it would not be enough to wake up my wife. if my wife woke, she would shout at chubby to stop it and just wait for morning. chubby knew who to wake up. hahaha. and she would "knock" on the door after finishing her business, so i would let her back in again. For some reason, if she woke me up, i knew she had to do her thing at that moment. shouting at her to stop it would only break her spirit. all it took for me was to wake up, open the door, and wait for her to come back.

id like to end this article with a black and white photograph of chubby, as she was staring out towards north east. i think this was taken a few months before she died. she would often look out towards that direction, perhaps conscious that both my wife and i would be in that direction. in her last two months, she often stared in that direction, waiting for her master to come home. you can sense her loneliness, perhaps even desolation, as she probably knew her time was coming up. perhaps she was waiting for her master to come home and be with her for the last time. Louie Aseoche, i vividly remember you telling me that Chubby lunging at my pulse when I assisted the doctors in putting chubby in the cage was "her way of telling me she did not want to die away from you, but perhaps in your arms". I must have really really irritated her sending her off to the hospital. I sent her off because I was hoping that her sickness/lack of appetite could be cured by the best doctors money can buy. She did not want to be sent off because she knew she only had 24 hours left to live; and she wanted the last 24 hours to be spent with someone who had needed to love her. I realized that because of what you said, Louie. I will always wear the watch i wore that day, when she bit me at my right pulse. it will always remind me that things are not always what they seem to be.

i badly miss you, baby.

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Casablanca, revisited

CASABLANCA, Revisited
They first met at MAXIM’S in Paris. She, a beautiful cover for the man she was with; working for the overthrow of the status quo. He, a man with a history that needed to be shaken off; working discretely with a man named Sam.

Often inebriated, he had promised to drown his sorrows in a land far far away, known only to the people who walk the dust-strewn paths in order to avoid the crowd. Sam, his foil, was the only one who knew his pain, swearing to never ever play the song which caused all the trouble in the first place.

From afar, she was visible in the crowd. As if a spotlight was aimed at her table, in an already bright room. His eyes strayed towards the bright. And then, in an instant, he knew that he had been found. She, with her bright glowing eye makeup which made you move your gaze toward her captivating eyes, was like a magnet; drawing his stare. He, never intending to be drawn again, was. And he blamed the eye make-up. And she swears she never had any on that day. Regardless, the situation was cast.

They only had 7 days before all hell would break loose. She had everything with her, and she had to get out in the next seven days. He intended to stay put; not intending to see the end of the year. They spend the first night together. She, inebriated but capable, pretending to be worse than she was. He, not too sober, but pretending to be. They spend the night, together, drinking Cardamon infused Turkish tea. Each one not too sure about each other. The sunrise was too far away. She only asked for one thing, that they both live in the moment. Nothing more. Sam was on vacation that day, and would make an appearance four days later.

He needed to check their way out of Cassablanca and a newly fitted vessel capable of holding up to a hundred passengers was the chosen ride. She needed to spend time away from her situation, not quite knowing what tomorrow would bring. She decides to spend time with her situation, regardless. Her time was moving fast. 5 days away.

She needed her two exit passes from him, not really telling him about who she intended to bring for the second pass. With each day, her decision would start to blur. He did not tell her that he had already decided to give her the two passes, intending to give her her second chance at happiness. He would stay behind and grapple with the german situation, but happy in the thought that she would be happy with the person she was with. They share a drink. Peach Schnappes. Sam walks by, not knowing she was there. She catches up to him and asks, “PLAY IT, SAM”. He hesitates, wide eyed, knowing how much pain that song meant to his boss. “PLAY THE GO**AMN SONG, SAM!” he shouts. Play it just once. It brings tears to their eyes. They spend the night together again, both asleep, holding hands. By now, they have spent four of the last five nights together, leaving only the last night left. He has the exit passes kept somewhere secure. She has no idea what she has to do to get them. She, who had asked that they live in the moment, was now not too sure about the moment. He, the hopeless romantic that never wanted the moment, was now sure about the moment. He was also sure that he would regret just being in the moment, but knew that going beyond that was way beyond what she had planned. He wanted, but knew she didn’t. She didn’t, but now wasn’t too sure. Especially after hearing Sam again, after all those years.

Her company arrives, chased by the german hounds. He provides a hidden passage where they make haste towards the last chance of safe departure. She promises to be with him, making up for lost time. He knows that the cause would be lost if she and her company would part ways because of him. The cause is too big to be overshadowed by petty relationships, he thinks; as he shoves the last two exit passes into her hands. “you know I love you, rick” she says, fully meaning all five syllables of it. He whispers “he needs you” as they move into their last rushed hug. The german comes in, threatening to arrest them all for treason. He pulls out a small revolver from his coat pocket and makes sure that never happens. He whispers one last time; “we’ll always have Paris.” and turns his back on them, as they board.

He never intended to see the end of the year. And now he wasn’t too sure anymore.

Jesus Paul C. Yan
For The Paul Yan Chronicles
Ps2, ana, I don’t know if it measures up to “death by heatstroke” ha…. I hope it did.
ps3, jerry, thank you for making this story possible.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Stranded in Galera. Lovin' Every Minute!

Having been hit by a freak storm which nobody knew about (not even the bright boys of pagasa it seems) just as we were getting ready to come back home to Manila was certainly like a monkey wrench thrown into everyone's well-oiled Obsessive-Compulsive dictated schedule.

Each one having at least one meeting or situation scheduled on the day after coming back from Galera, we all were kinda jittery about not being able to make it to Manila on the original schedule. However, having also seen the road conditions (what road? oh, the cemented portion over the 50-foot hole after the two landslide areas?")the day before, everyone thought that the road trip towards the ro-ro port was more dangerous especially right after a direct hit by a storm. So we all counted the loose change we had left in our pockets, and dug in deep for an extra night. And what a night it was.

Galera, which is how people fondly refer to Puerto Galera, is populated by resort owners who seem to understand the plight of the stranded traveller. Something Galera has been known to do for the past 200 maybe 300 years, especially to boats and ships caught offguard by the occasional freak storm. They were very accomodating to guests who had to extend an extra night and even offered special discounts as if they wanted to let each one know that they were comiserating in their plight. Here is a short list of things, in no particular order, that a lonely stranded traveller may find entertaining or helpful, depending on their state of mind.

worst 3 things to run out of?

1) money
2) toothpaste
3) underwear

4) lighter / smokes
5) bottlecap opener
6) balut

worst 3 things to have in excess?
1) warm beer
2) fat-rich food
3) holes in the roof

4) sexy ladies you cannot / should not make friends with
5) cougars who want to make friends with you


3 highly recommended activities during a Galera storm
1) photograph the waves with a non-waterproof camera while holding an umbrella
2) challenge a German or Russian to a beer or a vodka session
3) challenge a Candelarian to a three-hour game of Dama

4) engage in a serious binge drinking wine sniffing session at the Aninuan Sunset resort
5) bet on the ultimate billiards game between contenders Uly & Jeff
6) binge on Seafood Pizza, pancit canton, and margaritas


worst place to give your camera a dunking
1) Tamaraw falls
2) the rocks between white beach and aninuan
3) the pool at aninuan. bad for cellphones also.

best place to dive after dunking your camera
1) Tamaraw falls. you get a sympathy hug from the models while everyone records the moment.

best things on the menu in Tamaraw restaurant
1) Tamaraw rice.
2) Poached eggs.
3) Chicken curry.

in Aninuan restaurant

1) Tinolang Manok
2) Crepes and Ice Cream
3) 2003 Listel Merlot

most appreciated non-photographic device
1) music player
2) roxy & Jeff's portable wifi broadband
3) Camara Estates cigars & Marlboro black menthols
4) hot-water showers


(to be continued from lucban, quezon)

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

The Galera Project, update

it is less than 48 hours away.

Three months ago, it was just a plan. a fallback from the Thailand workshop that went bust when nobody took care of it. Today the Galera Project is virtually all set, with all the loose ends taken cared of late this afternoon.

expect the smoothest ride from Greenhills to Batangas City thanks to Jeffrey Yan, who took care of the chartered vans, with brand new vehicles. try to pack light on your diving equipment, so you'll have room leftover for your brand new 70-200 f2.8 lens. Yes, Ian Sayson, it will really be a perfect match for the shoot. John Garcia will also be breaking in his new 85mm f1.8, while Sandy Villagracia will put her new flash unit and gary fong diffuser through its paces. Close friend Aris & Cedric Dungo, also both diving enthusiasts, will be joining the location workshops for the first time. They have been private students since 2007. I hope Aris brings along a good cigar, as my Camara Estates brand might not be ready by tomorrow. The cigar labels have encountered a courier problem which i hope will be resolved by tomorrow morning. TJ Tan, fresh from another international trip, will also be joining the location workshops for the first time. He is from the Astoria Plaza Sessions, organized through the efforts of Ulysses Chua, who has handled all our booking requirements. Up until a few days ago, Roxanne San Agustin was very seriously eyeing the Olympus Pen as a lighter alternative to her backpack-full equipment. I told her if she gets the olympus, her back problems will virtually be gone in an instant. Potpot Pinili will have his sights on the glamour landscapes, while Maja Riveral will have his hands full digesting his first one-on-one location tutorial with me. My student from Xavier, Chris King, will also be joining, along with his dad. Chris is one of the 3 people from xavier who i actually feel are exceptionally talented when it comes to photography. Chris will also be assisting me on the shoot, so he has clearance to come within 1 meter of our models. That is non-transferable, gentlemen.

See you in 40 hours.

Jesus Paul C. Yan
for the paul yan chronicles

ps1 my team will have a total of 7 members, including 3 models, a technical assist, and an art director.
ps2 breakfast will not be served. if you wake up early, go and get some for everyone. :)