The Paul Yan Chronicles

After trying for a week, I decide that "since I won't pass out, apparently my time isn't up yet."

i have realized a couple of things in that week.
1) the "hole" can get very dark and lonely. if you do not have anyone to pull you out, you can lose your way in there, and not have any way to get back up.
2) when push comes to shove, and all you want is to pass out, you will call out to anyone, just to pass out. unfortunately, no one comes.
3) the back pains become a part of your subsequent days.
4) the ligature marks are noticeable, even from a short distance. and are quite difficult to hide, with regular tropical clothes.
5) somehow, you have to have the ability to repurpose yourself, your life. and that is what i am trying to do now. and learning SEO concepts. both difficult.

another 63 site visits this week. still no one wants to leave a message. makes you think everyone is illiterate now. I don't know which one is worse. 63 visitors ignoring your plea to leave a note, or 63 illiterate visitors on a writing blog. the analytics software are all in place now in this blog, after a month of setting it up.

oh by the way, it never really is painless.